This is my first foray into the world of blogging, and I already feel like I’m in over my head.  I’ve been bouncing around the idea for a couple of years now, but to actually pull the trigger and do it, well, it’s intimidating to put it mildly.  Actually, the Lord is Who told me I needed to do it.  Pretty much the same way He told me to homeschool- all but physically coming down and verbally telling me to my face.  There was just no denying it, and so when the Lord leads that obviously, you really have no choice but to follow.  Honestly, my reaction was the same as it was to homeschooling: NO.  I don’t want to, I don’t have that kind of time, there’s plenty of people better equipped to do this, just NO.  Oh well.  Here I am in our second year of homeschooling and here I am writing a blog.  Don’t tell the Lord no.

I think I have just as much fear and anxiety regarding the blog as I did homeschooling, which seems crazy.  Homeschooling is huge.  HUGE.  Like, my children’s education is literally on me.  They are with me all the time, pretty much all day, every day.  If they stay out of therapy as adults, I will give myself a huge parenting high-five.

I’ve been asked what I’m going to write, what the blog will really be about.  I wish I knew!  I have long said that writing is cheaper than therapy.  So, I guess this is my therapy.  Goodness knows I’ve been through just about every other type of therapy at various stages in my life, and this sure is cheaper.  I’m the nerd who kept a journal since age 8- which Lord help my children when I’m dead and gone and they look back on those things.  Then again, maybe all those little books will shed some light on just why Mommy was the way she was.  Maybe they will somehow be able to look back on this blog and see how Mommy waded through life when they were little.

I almost made a top ten list of why I shouldn’t have a blog.  The Lord didn’t seem interested in me complaining that there’s already approximately a million and two Mommy Blogs out there;  that I really don’t have anything too interesting to say; that me writing about my life and things I’ve been through are far too personal and will only make me vulnerable; that I’m just opening myself up to criticism; that no one will read anything I write.  That’s when the Lord made it clear that it will  OKAY.  If not one blessed soul reads any word on this blog, it will be okay.

So, let the adventure begin!